I’m Still Learning All That
If there’s anything I’ve learned to be thankful for, it’s that when it rains, it pours. While I know how that sounds, the point is, if all the storms happen at once, you can be certain of one thing: If you live, the sun will shine again.
I’m not sure how to say thank you enough to the people that take time to leave kind comments and send thoughtful emails to me. And not just regarding the posts where I’m emotional and a little lost, but also those where I’m looking for some motivating music or, you know, free medical advice. It continually amazes me that a) I’ve been fortunate enough to get some kind of grasp on the Internet at all, and b) that I seemed to have crossed paths with some of the coolest, kindest people alive. I say that without any sarcasm at all. The time I spend reading your thoughts and interacting with people in this strange, mysterious connection is one of the reasons I know what good is.
I’m constantly reminded that though my world may seem very small and definitive (though not often understandable), there is someone out there that has better, wiser insight than I. There is a girl who has had that awkward ex run-in, there’s a guy that can give me a hard time about being so inept with a bike tire. I appreciate all of it.
A lot of that hit me today, when I was turned down for a promotion that I didn’t even want. I felt obligated to go for it, though, and dang if that won’t come back to bite you every time. If I may state the obvious: Do not do something just because it is expected. The lack of your heart being in the game will always show through. And so I admit that fault, I hope the lesson is learned, and I was reminded that yeah, everyone goes through those moments. It sure made for a nice second dose of crap in an already rough run of kicks to the gut, but I can somehow already feel myself moving on. For that, I know to consider myself lucky.
I know better than to predict anything, but I’d say my odds for this streak ending now (at least for now) are pretty good. I’ll be off for a while, and—this part will really come as a shock—there is a beach in my very near future. Life, storms and all, is good. Of course, I mean this all in a relative way. I’m aware there are people who’d consider my life a walk in the park, mostly because it is. But I’m still learning that.
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19 Responses to “I’m Still Learning All That”
May 21st, 2008 at 11:22 pm
Enjoy your trip and the time away. And float us some of those beautiful pics you are famous for.
May 22nd, 2008 at 5:15 am
Ah, I’m already jealous and can’t wait to see the beach pictures. It’s been too long since I’ve really been to the beach (I don’t count my trip in April since it was too cold to go in!!).
I hear you on the connections out there. It’s just weird how you can find it. And I’m still going to send you at least one great motivating song. I just full on remember (before my MP3 even) taking my discman on a run, listening to this new CD and having a song motivate me up a hill…
May 22nd, 2008 at 5:26 am
I hope this vacay rejuvenates and revives you. Umbrella drinks, sand, surf, umbrella drinks, sun, umbrella drinks…enjoy it all! Especially the umbrella drinks!
May 22nd, 2008 at 7:10 am
Have a great long weekend!
May 22nd, 2008 at 8:09 am
The beach is always good for centering- at least for me it is. And you are so right about not doing things out of expectation. I’m slowly figuring out how not to do that. It’s hard!
May 22nd, 2008 at 8:33 am
Have a great weekend at the beach - eat some cereal, drink some drinks, eat some chocolate and life will be oh-so-good.
May 22nd, 2008 at 9:23 am
Beach, long weekend, sun, sand… sounds like the recipe for a well deserved and needed break!
Have a great time!
May 22nd, 2008 at 10:02 am
If only the saying “Life’s a beach” were true all the time.
May 22nd, 2008 at 12:51 pm
Have fun!
May 23rd, 2008 at 11:58 am
For as cliche as it may sound…things do happen for a reason.
May 23rd, 2008 at 6:42 pm
I too am always amazed at some of the fabulous people I have met on the internetz. How did I become so lucky to into and connect with such quality humans?
The politics behind what is expected of you at work, whether or not those actions are actually in your plans, sure become tiresome quickly, don’t they?
Refocus on what’s really important and enjoy your long weekend.
May 24th, 2008 at 12:46 pm
Can’t wait to see the new design!
May 25th, 2008 at 4:51 am
Hi. Just read this post and the previous one..
Girl, you are an awesome and gifted writer. Thx for sharing about u! Hope u have some sunny skies and lots of air!!
May 25th, 2008 at 4:15 pm
I think it is okay to occasionally do what is expected, but in the end you did what was right for you and that’s what matters.
Enjoy the beach. Are you going to St. john? If so I’m so jealous. Tom and I wanted to go back for our anniversary, but with the move it is not going to happen. yet, we are planning to go this winter! Maybe we’ll meet up there sometime
May 26th, 2008 at 10:19 am
Another lesson that I keep learning over and over is that to live a few days of the life I want, I have to live through weeks of that other life that pays for everything. Sadly, even at my age I’m still doing things I don’t care about, for people who don’t care about me. But it pays for plane tickets, dog food, and living indoors, and those are all pretty good things! I could really use a trip to the beach, but have too many other things on the books this year.
May 27th, 2008 at 9:50 am
That first paragraph is beautiful. What a great outlook. I’m glad the promotion was one you didn’t really want…maybe another will come up that actually means something to you.
May 27th, 2008 at 11:00 pm
The beach is good. Hope you’re enjoying it. I’ll be back to see the pics.
May 28th, 2008 at 9:41 pm
A beach sounds really really good to me. Are you on the beach yet? I’m a bit late to this post so you may already be out of town.
There’s just not enough to be said about the compassion of bloggers. It’s one of the most incredible things and non-bloggers will never quite understand.
May 29th, 2008 at 5:37 pm
Precious One!!
A hard lesson maybe, but valuable: Sometimes a promotion just isn’t a promotion.
Best wishes for all your days.
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