Bounce, baby

Well then, Internet.  Well. Then.

I am so touched by all the incredible words of support I found through yesterday’s post. I’ve been saying all day, and probably to several of you, that I’m so very thankful for the feedback and mostly because it helps me to reassure myself that I’ve not completely lost my mind. It is stunning to me how obvious things like this become once you take action. Moreover, it’s stunning to me how obvious the need for the action was to everyone else.

I know this to be true, of course. That from the outside looking in, of course everyone else can see the solution. Of course everyone else knows things aren’t right. But from inside your own world, your own bubble, other things take over. Thoughts. Doubts. The internal dialogue of “but I can’t pay the rent!” versus “but you MUST pay the rent!” It is all just too much, too unclear, right up until that moment where it’s not.

And then, ahhh.  Well, mostly ahhh.  Which is fine. Because, hello, the unknown will still come knocking at your door and wait for you to leap and fall and smack! go into a panic just like you always did. The difference is, maybe this time you don’t. Maybe this time you bounce.