I have so much to do right now it’s almost kismet (did I use that correctly?) that I’m going to find myself with a lot of time on my hands in seven short days. I have photos to edit, I have Thank You cards to write. I have a carpet cleaner to use. I have shelves to build. The list just doesn’t end. Let the period of my life known as That Time I Was A Housewife Without Actually Being a Wife begin! It’s a shame I cannot stand BonBons.
But there’s also that side of me going OHNOCRAPWHATDIDIDOOOOOIAMSOSTUPID! And that side of me? She is loud, high-strung, and friggin annoying. I feel like I need to shut her up, and I got some great news today that’s going to help me do just that; some news that’s going to make it possible for me to not have a heart attack when my last paycheck arrives in a couple weeks. Not having a heart attack at thirty = A GOOD THING.
So because I can breathe a little easier, and because I went to yoga today for the first time in over two weeks, I’m just going to post a little zen and leave it at that.
This is exactly how I feel right now:
Like everything’s going to be alright. And, yeah, that I’m not really into being on that side of the camera. But mostly that everything’s going to be alright.
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Everything *is* going to be alright. I know this is going to be a stressful, but incredibly rewarding, time for you.
About a year ago, I was in the same position as you are now. I quit my job because every morning the first thing I thought was ‘O NO! I have to go to work (today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, etc). I would think of accidents that would be not really painful, but would not allow me to go to work, etc. That had to stop, so I quit.
What got me through my period of unemployment, was thinking about a few months from now. Then, I would probably think ‘if I only knew then, what I know now, how my new job is so much more fun, and my life is so much better now’. And: ‘I wish I enjoyed my unemployment more, since I had all the time in the world!’
Hang in there. This may be a very scary place right now, but you did the right thing.
You do zen really well! And I can attest firsthand that those to-do lists are not always that easy to get through!