I am running, I am working

It has been a long week, which I haven’t been able to say in about five weeks, because, you know, most of my days now are spent trying to figure out how my house gets to be such a mess when all I do is clean it. And, well, I am spending time now looking for work. And running, believe it or not.

First, thanks to everyone that helped me out on my runner whine. Shocking to no one, this happens to me a couple times a year, like about this same time last year. Good thing I have such an inspiring way of not living in the past, and therefore can ask the Internet over and over again to help me. So thank you, Internet. I promise to only whine about this twice a year… ish.

Of course, whining about something and getting a response is the magical cure to anything and later that evening after writing that post, I sat down and figured out a nice little winter training plan. I’m giving myself a whole year to increase my endurance, and speed (not at the same time, of course). Or my whole life. Because who really cares how fast you are or how long you can run in any certain amount of time? No one, no one but you. I know myself along with a lot of other runners could stand to remember that once in a while.

That was all the good part of the week. The part that made it long was the work part. Also no surprise to anyone. Remember that work meeting I didn’t feel right about? Well after days of thinking about it, I still didn’t feel like it was the right thing. Then, the day before the meeting, the person it was scheduled with began incessantly sending emails to reschedule and relocate the meeting due to last-minute “schedule conflicts.” After the third email I said “okay, I’m listening!” (yes, aloud in my house), stopped agreeing, picked up the phone, and canceled the meeting altogether. It was the right thing to do.

While it somewhat puts me back a bit, I am grateful for two things: I am in the position to not go from one negative situation to another, with all kinds of red flags, and I can trust my gut from here on out.  There’s a quote that says something like “trust your gut, but never believe that is enough” and I totally get that feeling today. Yes, listen to your gut, but also remember that doesn’t relieve you from effort. Working away from the negative things and toward the positive is still work. I am okay with that.