Sometime last week something hit me and I decided it was time to start putting more time into running, upping the mileage again. Normally I would have done this earlier in the year, but the weather here has been so uncooperative that getting outside just wasn’t at all attractive until now. My running, though, has suffered and it’s going to take some time to rebuild. I’m thinking of just restarting at a 5K distance and going from there. My running is sort of disastrous right now, and I think the only way to get over that is just to start over at Step One.
This morning I went out for a run sort of early, and it was already 50 degrees. That’s a near-perfect running temperature, for me, and it was probably the best way to start out this Monday. If you read my post from two days ago, then I probably don’t have to say that I’ve been stressed out and worried about work all weekend, which is really no way to spend a weekend. I’m sure you agree.
And if you’re following along, I have made the first steps in handling the situation, along with defending myself, so I’m trying to move forward. I’ve received a lot of advice and the common thread seems to be just to slow down and handle one thing at a time, so that’s what I’m trying to do. The hardest part is conveying my “slowed down” tone to others while protecting myself at the same time. Lordy, I did not miss this about larger-scale work AT ALL.
It’s really tough for me to keep myself from making sweeping generalizations at this point, but I’m trying not to do that. I’m trying to see this as just a speed bump, but WOW, it is one huge friggin’ speed bump, and I think it’s going to leave a mark. I’m trying to remove myself from the initial bad feelings enough to make decisions, but it’s really tough. I might need outside intervention to keep me from reacting the way I want to right now, which is something like “fine, if that’s how it’s going to be, goodbye.” I know that doesn’t seem very adult or professional in itself, though. It turns out I take my work incredibly personally. Aren’t we all shocked?
So I’m going to keep thinking, and keep getting advice, and keep trying to just handle one little disaster at a time. I’m probably going to need to run every morning this week.
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I think running is one of the best ways to work through situations like this. Running was one of the only things that got me through my last bad breakup. You’re going to get through this and come out better on the other side.
How strange, I had a day yesterday when I really really should have worked out to combat the stress and instead I drank more coffee, which only made things worse. I should have gone running with you.
I think that slowing down and taking one day at a time is definitely the way to go. That being said, telling them to fuck off is not unprofessional if you are not being treated fairly or respectfully. Well, you will probably not tell them to “fuck off” but you know what I mean.