10 to 20

The thing about making a decision that I can always appreciate is the almost instant relief that follows. Somewhere in those 10 or 20 seconds after I feel completely reassured and optimistic. Sometimes that feeling lasts longer, but not often. Usually my mind will drift toward thoughts of “What if?” and “What now?”

Today, though, I just want to make the effort to live in those 10 to 20 seconds for as long as I can.  I want to appreciate them for what they are, my ability to make a choice, or exercise my free will you might say, while still having faith that it will all work out without worrying about what’s next. One thing I don’t usually do is second guess myself. I make a decision and commit to it and move forward.  Sometimes it is completely right, and sometimes not so much, but either way I make it and own it. And then move on.

I am probably rambling right now, and not making enough sense to qualify for a coherent post, but I guess what I am trying to say is that I feel pretty great. These 10 to 20 seconds are so joyful, so okay.  And right now, maybe even all day, I’m going to live in these 10 to 20 seconds and feel reassured that these seconds, along with everything that led up to them, is just what is meant to be.