Yesterday afternoon I was sitting on the edge of my bed, staring at the wall, and wondering if the brick sitting on my head was ever going to go away. I know it’ll generate some eye rolling when I say this, but I think there’s a reason I was sick this week. I think there’s a reason for everything, of course, but as I stared at the wall yesterday trying to see and think straight for even just a moment, I thought of how lucky I am to have a place to be sick. The pillows and sheets to rest my head, the life structure (unstructured?) that allows for sick days, the people that will call to check on me and not mind my voice sounding like a sock is stuffed in my nose. All of that is lucky.
I know it gets sort of old for me to write here about how lucky I feel and my pretty dang good life life but honestly, those are the things worth sharing. All the things that are difficult or scary or bad have one thing in common: they pass. The good can be and is here to stay, if you let it. It’s a conscious effort, every day. It’s an effort to receive thoughts and opinions and actions from everyone around you, including yourself, and decide what you’ll do with them. Here is the honest truth, Internet: I have no clue where my life will be in a month. I don’t mean in the everyday way that “we just never know” I mean in every way. Work, money, home. Some pretty basic things here. And yet every day I find myself waking up, looking outside and being grateful for things like coffee and the Internet. It is a strange thing to witness the dichotomy of hope and fear in your own mind. Somehow they are coexisting, and peacefully.
In some ways, I feel like this has broken open a whole new part of me (the last 7 months of my life, not the head cold), a part of me I’ve maybe referenced here recently but didn’t really know I had. It’s pretty incredible, it’s motivating. I don’t know what’s going to come of it, but I’m excited to see.
As always, I’m grateful for those of you in my little corner of the Internet here; the blog community has opened my eyes to support like no other single place. And even those of you who aren’t other bloggers, who read secretly, or who read but don’t comment and will reference something I say here three months from now, I’m grateful. And I hope that whatever happens with this path I’m on and these ideas I have, that you’ll be with me then too.
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This is the second post I read tonight about being lucky and how we really should be grateful for all the little and big things we have that make our lives so great. Thanks for the reminder!
I hope you feel better soon, colds tend to be no fun.
You are the bestest.
Now I feel like a big old complainer because I don’t want to go exercise, after sleeping in and drinking a pot of coffee. I could learn a thing or two from you.
i can’t wait to follow along with you, and hear about all the good things in store coming your way
I am not sure about all that you allude to, but I like this. Like it.
L, I really love your gratitude posts. You have such a great perspective. And it’s so much fun to follow you along on this great journey.
Checking in regularly and continue to love your posts and writing. Also what each new day is bringing your way.
I have a crappy head cold too, but every day there is luck around … we just have to be aware of it. Great post LG.
Isn’t life amazing – we can feel out of sorts and be in a rough spot and then we find something little that is amazing.
Kind of like this little blog! Thank you for writing and thank you for sharing your adventures and thoughts with all of us!
I’m glad to be along on this journey with you. It’s inspiring!
Can’t wait to see what happens with you.
I kind of feel the same way!